User blog:Dream Thinker/You know what?

Nobody even needs me anymore. I'm not gonna talk to anyone anymore because all I do is hurt them without meaning to, and even if it's assured that it'll never happen again, it will, only even worse. That's why I've been so afraid of talking to anyone, because I've been so afraid of hurting them deeply without meaning to. Nothing will ever be alright no matter how you think of it. I don't want anyone's pity. You don't deserve someone who'll only hurt you and keep making worse mistakes if you grow to trust them. You know, I was once told by my mom that I never learn from my mistakes and I'll always be a bad person, and she's right. She doesn't think so anymore, but it still hurt to hear her say that. Looking back at all the mistakes I've made without meaning to, I am an awful person. I don't deserve anyone's kindness. They should protect themselves from me. I really am an idiot for not saving myself. I am an idiot for not doing anything truly right, or admirable.